Personal stuff about me

Life update that turned into a "thank you" corny message in the end.

As I have mentioned in previous journals, I'm sick. I have Multiple Sclerosis. This disease has no cure, and the symptoms keep coming back. What bothers me the most are my eyes. In the beginning of the year it got really bad, because it took me a while to find out what was wrong with me. And I ended up in the hospital. But the symptoms are relapsing, this year my eyes got bad again on July, and now again on October. When the symptoms come back I go to the hospital and take Methylprednisolone intravenously for 3 days. It takes a while for my eyes to get better again, right now they still aren't normal.

Yesterday I started taking a new drug, Interferon Beta 1a. It's an injection I have to take once a week. It's said it should make the relapse of the symptoms less frequent.

This whole year my life hasn't been normal at all, I can't work like this, I get tired really easily, and I don't have good balance to stand or walk around, I must say it's making me really depressed to be sick all the time. Although I try my best not to be. At times I'm feeling good, and when I do I try my best to draw as much as I can, but it doesn't last very long. As the disease seems to mainly affect my optic nerves. I can't use the computer either.

I love drawing though, so it's been really hard on me. I can't join anything I want to because I never know how I will be. When it's so hard, I think of giving up many times. Closing my account and leaving. And when people don't know, I get tired of explaining. I also get tired of myself and my incapability to do anything. So maybe writing this journal I can just link them to it whenever they ask me anything.

I keep thinking I should find myself something else to do. Something that doesn't rely on my eyes so much. It's really sad to give up on something you love though.

My friends have been really supportive and caring, I thank them so much for it. I really appreciate it!!

And more!! Just mentioning the ones who have talked to me more. I love you, guys.

Thank you for all the times you made me laugh and cared until now ♡ And for all the fun~

And a special thank you for Kiim. u////u



She talks to me every single day, and is always listening to me and encouraging me. She's so kind, bright and cheerful, like a warm ray of sunshine in a cold day. ≧▽≦ ♡ When I feel like giving in, she won't let me. Nowadays she's probably the reason I don't. My BFF uhuhu.

She sent me a sketchbook filled with her drawings, which I love so much!! Will always treasure it. ; v ;
I love you, Kiimbbycakes ♡♡♡ thank you so much.

I can say I get enough love and attention, and I'm really thankful and happy for it. I couldn't wish for more.

But it's kind of a battle against myself I guess. To not allow frustration to eat me up inside.
I can only hope to get better again and again.